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I'm not sure if you understodd what I was talking about in my last comment ... about the bullshit ... so here I am clearing it up. How can you fucking say no one wants to be your friend and no one cares? Why the hell do you think I was so pissed off when we weren't doing anything? Answer: Because I want to be your friend but you have no time for me. How can you say no one cares? Why do you think people like Ben and I get so upset when you cut? Answer: Because we do care. So stop fucking saying that no one cares because people obviously fucking do!
Alright, first off, i was just joking when i said that. I'm quite available to do things, i have been trying, don't give me any bullshit that i'm never available, you tell me on like thursday that you are available friday or sometime during the weekend and i'd love to chill with you. Don't get me wrong, i like having fun with you, and i do have the time, tell me when you are available and i'll gladly comply. And this is why i neglected to tell you that i do cut, because you took it badly and it really doesn't matter, i am in the process of stopping so please stop bring it up. I should never have told you, you just keep blowing up at me because of it, you blew up because i didn't tell you, and you blow up because i do it. Also, i prefer that friends of mine actually tell me things, i have tried to do so, you neglect to tell me anything, yes, i know you have things going on in your life, and you don't want to share most of them, but ever thought that it might do some good to tell someone something. I am clearly no longer your best friend, i have been replaced by people that make you happy. I'm glad your happy, remain that way, but when you want to do something with me then you come to me, i've had enough.
If you're quite avaible to do stuff how come you couldn't play soccer? Wasn't your excuse that you didn't have the time?Secondly the reason I normally tell you on Thrusday is because my work schedule comes out on Wednesday. There is no way to tell you anytime before.Besides that it is only on the weekends that we can "chill" as you are not allowed to do stuff during the week. With that said Friday is shot because we all normally go out that night and then I normally work Saturday night. So there is not really that much free time I have open yet I stil found time in my schedule to play soccer.Also to tell you the truth, hanging out with you has not been that much fun when we have done it. Honestly, when Ben's not around ... you're not either metaphorically speaking. It's like hanging out with a tree.And sorry I will have to bring up the cutting issue again. How many times have you said you were going to stop now? How many scars do you have? You're not stopping and "it really DOES matter". At least to the people who care about you. Cutting yourself up is not cool and saying that you should just kill yourself because no one cares is just as stupid. Why do you think people have been putting in so much effort to try and make you stop, yet you keep doing it. And I'm glad you're trying to stop but like I've said ... you've tried that before. You keep making up excuses and justifying it. You need help.On the subject of telling people things. You're a hypocrite. You tell barely anyone anything. And then the stuff you do let out you write in your live journal for the whole world to know yet you don't even tell your "best friend". And I do tell people stuff, what's bothering me, what makes me hurt. But unlike you said it does no good as they don't help me, just makes it worse as it almost proves that they don't care.And yes, thank you, I am happy, actually not really any thanks to you. I hope I remain this way too.And I do want to be friends, unlike you think I do not in anyway hate you. I was just upset and I guess jealous and all alone. You honestly had no idea how I felt, sitting there wishing for a knife. Maybe if you can separate yourself from Ben for awhile and be able to have a decent conversation with me while he's not around we can arrange to do something and have some fun finally.Honestly, Amanda, I'll repeat myself again. You are so dependant on him. I don't know if you can change that. But I don't care, if you're happy the way you are, stay that way. Like I've also said before I want you to be happy. I would rather not have your friendship as long and you ALIVE and happy.
Nope, sorry lovely lady, i was in a really terrible mood last night, and deleated a bunch of random people, i'm sorry that you were one of them. I shall add you back right now!
Nope, sorry lovely lady, i was in a really terrible mood last night, and deleated a bunch of random people, i'm sorry that you were one of them. I shall add you back right now!
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You like me right?
very much
Aww. Yay!
It's not the quantity, it's the quality! :D
aparently i'm "no one" then.....
you didn't post this before i said it! you still definatly count! :D
That's bullshit.
thanks
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me. I guess I'll go eat worms...
Add me! :D
oh.. but, but, but, you are cool :D
been there, done that :)
Add me muffin! :)
yess miss sweetykins
Am I kooool enough and shit?
sure, you are coolness
Am I accepted?
most definatly!
I'm not sure if you understodd what I was talking about in my last comment ... about the bullshit ... so here I am clearing it up. How can you fucking say no one wants to be your friend and no one cares? Why the hell do you think I was so pissed off when we weren't doing anything? Answer: Because I want to be your friend but you have no time for me. How can you say no one cares? Why do you think people like Ben and I get so upset when you cut? Answer: Because we do care. So stop fucking saying that no one cares because people obviously fucking do!
Alright, first off, i was just joking when i said that. I'm quite available to do things, i have been trying, don't give me any bullshit that i'm never available, you tell me on like thursday that you are available friday or sometime during the weekend and i'd love to chill with you. Don't get me wrong, i like having fun with you, and i do have the time, tell me when you are available and i'll gladly comply. And this is why i neglected to tell you that i do cut, because you took it badly and it really doesn't matter, i am in the process of stopping so please stop bring it up. I should never have told you, you just keep blowing up at me because of it, you blew up because i didn't tell you, and you blow up because i do it. Also, i prefer that friends of mine actually tell me things, i have tried to do so, you neglect to tell me anything, yes, i know you have things going on in your life, and you don't want to share most of them, but ever thought that it might do some good to tell someone something. I am clearly no longer your best friend, i have been replaced by people that make you happy. I'm glad your happy, remain that way, but when you want to do something with me then you come to me, i've had enough.
holy shit, why cant people be civil anymore?
If you're quite avaible to do stuff how come you couldn't play soccer? Wasn't your excuse that you didn't have the time?Secondly the reason I normally tell you on Thrusday is because my work schedule comes out on Wednesday. There is no way to tell you anytime before.Besides that it is only on the weekends that we can "chill" as you are not allowed to do stuff during the week. With that said Friday is shot because we all normally go out that night and then I normally work Saturday night. So there is not really that much free time I have open yet I stil found time in my schedule to play soccer.Also to tell you the truth, hanging out with you has not been that much fun when we have done it. Honestly, when Ben's not around ... you're not either metaphorically speaking. It's like hanging out with a tree.And sorry I will have to bring up the cutting issue again. How many times have you said you were going to stop now? How many scars do you have? You're not stopping and "it really DOES matter". At least to the people who care about you. Cutting yourself up is not cool and saying that you should just kill yourself because no one cares is just as stupid. Why do you think people have been putting in so much effort to try and make you stop, yet you keep doing it. And I'm glad you're trying to stop but like I've said ... you've tried that before. You keep making up excuses and justifying it. You need help.On the subject of telling people things. You're a hypocrite. You tell barely anyone anything. And then the stuff you do let out you write in your live journal for the whole world to know yet you don't even tell your "best friend". And I do tell people stuff, what's bothering me, what makes me hurt. But unlike you said it does no good as they don't help me, just makes it worse as it almost proves that they don't care.And yes, thank you, I am happy, actually not really any thanks to you. I hope I remain this way too.And I do want to be friends, unlike you think I do not in anyway hate you. I was just upset and I guess jealous and all alone. You honestly had no idea how I felt, sitting there wishing for a knife. Maybe if you can separate yourself from Ben for awhile and be able to have a decent conversation with me while he's not around we can arrange to do something and have some fun finally.Honestly, Amanda, I'll repeat myself again. You are so dependant on him. I don't know if you can change that. But I don't care, if you're happy the way you are, stay that way. Like I've also said before I want you to be happy. I would rather not have your friendship as long and you ALIVE and happy.
hey i just started using lj you seem like a really nice person with heaps of great advice and i'd love to get to know you, so please add me.
Why did you take me off your friends list, if i've offended you in any way i'm really sorry.
Nope, sorry lovely lady, i was in a really terrible mood last night, and deleated a bunch of random people, i'm sorry that you were one of them. I shall add you back right now!
Nope, sorry lovely lady, i was in a really terrible mood last night, and deleated a bunch of random people, i'm sorry that you were one of them. I shall add you back right now!
...Amanda O_O.......Holy jesus, And Chimera, whome i only know as one man who uses that name, ben?Um...yeah....If this is you...lemme know
It's a different Chimera, though he does have an lj.. Yes it is. Who might i ask is this?
Pst, Ben's is Chimera555666
Tis Stewart
Figured as much.
I assume you want to be added?
Doesn't really matter to me, i was just seeing if it was you, cause i was just wondering
You won't like what you find when if i do add you, but you were right, tis i.
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